i don't know how i'm going to do this.

i'm officially apologising for what i did.
for betraying your trust and his.

i think maybe what you said is right.
when you follow your heart.
bad things happen and friendships are broken.

i guess i picked the final straw.

for the both of you.
i guess i followed my heart for too long now.
maybe its time i think with my head.
and not my heart.
i know what you can't trust me.
not after what i did.
i did a really horrible thing.

i know i can't redeem myself right now.
i don't think i can ever.
and it would be unfair for me to just say.
lets start this all over.

its time i get a reality check.
losing pet was one.
losing the both of you is another one.

i'm a horrible person.
i know.
i hope that either one of you can find it in you to forgive me.

when i say i won't interfere.
i won't.
i really really won't.

and what i said.
about it being a plan.
i did it out of spite.
things i said to either one of you.
purely out of spite.
and i apologise for that as well.

it wouldn't be fair to start everything over right away.
so let me know when i'm forgiven.
and take baby steps.